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Back during my Bachelor studies, I had to seizures in the first semester: one in the IT lab and the other before my applied math exam. I think I already wrote about them, but anyway… I had two more colleagues (from a different specialization) who also had epilepsy and seizures in that first semester.

One of the things I realized is that some people are using their seizures to get their way through life. I witnessed someone faking a seizure (the aura part anyway) in order to pass an exam. Easy to say she passed the exam.

But, after discussions on epilepsy forums, I realized some people actually wish sometimes to have a seizure. I was curious why so I “studied” myself before and after a seizure.

Before a seizure, I am usually all stressed up, extremely tired or incredibly nervous. I think it’s a state of mind that you need to get away from. Some do this through praying, some through meditation (and so on) to slow and stop the rising levels, but some do it through seizures.

After a seizure, although a little foggy in my mind (from not realizing what happened), I have to say that all that tension and fatigue disappears. You end up not worrying or stressing about anything (at least for a few hours). You are in a state of complete serenity.

So, is it good or bad to wish to have a seizure?